The Traveler: All That We See

For two weeks we leave our 3,000 sq ft abode for our 150 sq foot home on wheels. Leaving behind all we think we need for precisely what we do need to live while we explore nature in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan, my birth and ancestral home.

Being limited by weight as well as space we are careful in our choosing and yet there is always something we find that in the end, we really don’t need: too many clothes, food not eaten, a book not read. Traveling by canoe, we have lived with less. Hiking for a month, just 16 pounds of essentials. Even then, there are items not used.

There is a feeling of inner peace and comfort with a touch of pride in challenging myself this way. I imagine if I am alone, I would live with much less, but I tell myself with spouse and family, kids, and grandkids, who knows what I might need? Does the goose traveling the lake before me need more for the five goslings who follow her? Does the wood duck build a bigger home for her brood? Do I accumulate for an unknown future? Do I hold on to objects to keep the past close at hand?

I wonder, am I going into the wild or am I traveling in such a way that the wild might come into me? As I travel my ancestral land, memories surface wanting to be let go, dreams arrive asking for release. The more I release from within, the more I take in and, as each day lightens my load, I realize the space for awareness of the world around me.

Freedom, as we distance from our accumulation, is living in the present. All that I see around me in this moment: the blue sky, Red Pine, deer, geese, the waterfall, and the path I walk on, the ripple in the water, the reflection of the rock, water I carry, lunch when eaten. All become a part of me, all that I truly see. As I travel, I feel larger somehow, a feeling of expansion arises from within. Joy and gratitude flourish.

Still at water’s edge
Goose calls her goslings to swim
Heart opens in joy.

“Wherever you go becomes a part of you somehow.”

Anita Desai

“It is not what you look at that matters. It is what you see.”

Henry David Thoreau

“Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us, or we find it not.”

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Ongoing Resource List: Reading for the Heart and the Mind

  • The Gene Keys: Emracing Your Higher Purpose by Riuchard Rudd
  • Your Brain on Art: How the Arts Inform Us by Susan Magsamen and Ivy Ross
  • A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle
  • Energy Speaks: Messages from Spirit on Living, Loving, and Awakening by Lee Harris
  • Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create an New One by Dr. Joe Dispenza
  • The Women by Kristin Hannah
  • Cosmogenesis: An Unveiling of the Expanding Universe by Brian Thomas Swimme
  • The Mastery of Love, Don Miguel Ruiz
  • Change Your Thoughts—Change Your Life: Living the Wisdom of the Tao, by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer
  • God of Love: A Guide to the Heart of Judaism, Christianity, and Islam, by Mirabai Starr
  • The Four Agreements: A Toltec Book of Wisdom by Don Miguel Ruiz
  • Mindfulness and Grief by Heather Stang
  • How We Live Is How We Die by Pema Chödron
  • The Bhagavad Gita, Translated by Eknath Easwaran
  • St Francis of Assisi: Brother of Creation by Mirabai Starr
  • Wild Wisdom Edited by Neil Douglas-Klotz
  • Earth Prayers From Around The World, Ed by Elizabeth Roberts & Elias Amidon
  • The Tao of Relationships by Ray Grigg
  • Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom by John O’Donohue
  • Unconditional Love and Forgiveness by Edith R. Stauffer, Ph.D.
  • Keep Going: The Art of Perseverance by Joseph M. Marshall III
  • Art & Fear by David Bayless & Ted Orland
  • Quantum-Touch by Richard Gordon
  • The Van Gogh Blues: The Creative Persons Path Through Depression by Eric Maisel, PhD
  • The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
  • Amazing Grace: A Vocabulary of Faith by Kathleen Norris
  • Forever Ours: Real Stories of Immortality and Living by Janis Amatuzio
  • Personal Power Through Awareness by Sanaya Roman
  • Violence & Compassion by His Holiness the Dahlai Lama
  • Teachings on Love by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • Devotions by Mary Oliver
  • To Bless the Space Between Us by John O’Donohue
  • Meditations From the Mat by Rolf Gates and Katrina Kenison
  • The House of Belonging: poems by David Whyte
  • Full Catastrophe Living: Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain and Illness, by Jon Kabat-Zinn
  • The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
  • Soul an Archaeology Edited by Phil Cousineau
  • A Path With Heart by Jack Kornfield
  • Listening Point by Sigurd Olson
  • I Sit Listening to the Wind by Judith Duerk
  • Dancing Moons by Nancy Wood
  • The Soul of Rumi, Translations by Coleman Barks
  • Keep Going by Joseph M. Marshall III
  • Arriving at your own Door by Jon Kabat-Zinn
  • The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer
  • The Hidden Secrets of Water by Paolo Consigli
  • Conquest of Mind by Eknath Easwaran
  • Color: A Natural History of the Palette by Victoria Finlay
  • Peace is Every Step by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • I Thought It Was Just Me (But It Isn’t) by Brene Brown
  • Practicing Peace in Times of War by Pema Chodron
  • When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron
  • On Death and Dying by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
  • Unattended Sorrow by Stephen Levine
  • Joy in Loving, Mother Theresa
  • The Joy of Living by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche
  • Let Your LIfe Speak by Parker Palmer
  • Zen and the Art of Saving the Planet by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • The Essence of the Upanishads by Eknath Easwaran
  • Welcoming the Unwelcome by Pema Chodron
  • Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer
  • Medicine Cards: The Discovery of Power Through The Ways Of Animals by Jamie Sams and David Carson

And God Laughed

I have been reading a translation of an Egyptian Gnostic creation myth written somewhere between the 3rd and the 7th century. All cultures attempt to answer the bigger questions of the world, why and how are we here. These excerpts translated by Marie-Louise von Franz, captured my imagination:

“And the God laughed seven times. When he first laughed, light appeared, and its splendor shone through the whole universe…. The God laughed Seven times. Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha.”Then He laughed for the seventh time, drawing breath, and while he was laughing, he cried, and thus the soul came into being. And God said, thou shalt move everything, and everything will be made happier through you.”

Laughter: energy radiated out. Spirit moved forth. Vulnerable. Open. Loud. An expelling of power. A roar. A release of stress and anxiety.

Born out of laughter. Born out of joy. Born out of the depth of a belly laugh. What if we believed and embodied that awareness, lived believing that we are creators, that we move everything, and everything will be made happier through our one life? What if we were told of our innate goodness rather than our innate sin. How would we be different? How would we engage each other differently believing that not only of ourselves but of the other?

We don’t have to look far to also understand the First Noble Truth of Buddhism, suffering is an innate characteristic of existence, as we know it in our aging bodies, our own frustrations with life not going our way, our inability to fulfill our cravings. In the depths of poverty, hunger, fear, rage, and war, we see suffering. But what if we were raised to believe in our power to relieve suffering, to bring joy, happiness, and relief while creating, life is made happier through me, through us, through you.

Would we cease to look upon each other as stranger? As one to go to war against? As one who takes from my abundance? Despite life’s heartaches could we realize that through this presence in each other’s life we birth something new?

We have within us the ability to laugh at our own existence. Our foibles, our ineptitude. Our sheer lunacy while riding through space on Mother Earth.

As she was thrust out of her warm cocoon
into a world of lights and harsh sounds
she held deep within her the
memory of the sound of laughter.
She opened her mouth and cried out
then gazed into the eyes of the one
who will remind her of her power, 
through her goodness and kind heart
to heal, to love, to sing the world alive,
to create, and to be light for another.
Then, she opened her mouth again and,
she laughed.

“A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.”

Proverbs17:22

“Life is a miracle. We, all of us are creator beings. We are the joyful choice makers.”

Sakshi-Chetana, from Laughing Buddha: The Alchemy of Euphoric Living

“How did the rose ever open its heart and give to this world all of its beauty? It felt the encouragement of light against its being, otherwise we all remain too frightened.”

Hafiz

“And God said, thou shalt move everything, and everything will be made happier through you.”

From Patterns of Creativity Mirrored in Creation Myths by Marie-Louise von Franz, pp 135-37 and quoted in Soul An Archaeology Edited by Phil Cousineau

On Going Resource List: Reading for Mind and Heart

  • The Gene Keys: Emracing Your Higher Purpose by Riuchard Rudd
  • Your Brain on Art: How the Arts Inform Us by Susan Magsamen and Ivy Ross
  • A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle
  • Energy Speaks: Messages from Spirit on Living, Loving, and Awakening by Lee Harris
  • Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create an New One by Dr. Joe Dispenza
  • The Women by Kristin Hannah
  • Cosmogenesis: An Unveiling of the Expanding Universe by Brian Thomas Swimme
  • The Mastery of Love, Don Miguel Ruiz
  • Change Your Thoughts—Change Your Life: Living the Wisdom of the Tao, by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer
  • God of Love: A Guide to the Heart of Judaism, Christianity, and Islam, by Mirabai Starr
  • The Four Agreements: A Toltec Book of Wisdom by Don Miguel Ruiz
  • Mindfulness and Grief by Heather Stang
  • How We Live Is How We Die by Pema Chödron
  • The Bhagavad Gita, Translated by Eknath Easwaran
  • St Francis of Assisi: Brother of Creation by Mirabai Starr
  • Wild Wisdom Edited by Neil Douglas-Klotz
  • Earth Prayers From Around The World, Ed by Elizabeth Roberts & Elias Amidon
  • The Tao of Relationships by Ray Grigg
  • Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom by John O’Donohue
  • Unconditional Love and Forgiveness by Edith R. Stauffer, Ph.D.
  • Keep Going: The Art of Perseverance by Joseph M. Marshall III
  • Art & Fear by David Bayless & Ted Orland
  • Quantum-Touch by Richard Gordon
  • The Van Gogh Blues: The Creative Persons Path Through Depression by Eric Maisel, PhD
  • The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
  • Amazing Grace: A Vocabulary of Faith by Kathleen Norris
  • Forever Ours: Real Stories of Immortality and Living by Janis Amatuzio
  • Personal Power Through Awareness by Sanaya Roman
  • Violence & Compassion by His Holiness the Dahlai Lama
  • Teachings on Love by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • Devotions by Mary Oliver
  • To Bless the Space Between Us by John O’Donohue
  • Meditations From the Mat by Rolf Gates and Katrina Kenison
  • The House of Belonging: poems by David Whyte
  • Full Catastrophe Living: Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain and Illness, by Jon Kabat-Zinn
  • The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
  • Soul an Archaeology Edited by Phil Cousineau
  • A Path With Heart by Jack Kornfield
  • Listening Point by Sigurd Olson
  • I Sit Listening to the Wind by Judith Duerk
  • Dancing Moons by Nancy Wood
  • The Soul of Rumi, Translations by Coleman Barks
  • Keep Going by Joseph M. Marshall III
  • Arriving at your own Door by Jon Kabat-Zinn
  • The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer
  • The Hidden Secrets of Water by Paolo Consigli
  • Conquest of Mind by Eknath Easwaran
  • Color: A Natural History of the Palette by Victoria Finlay
  • Peace is Every Step by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • I Thought It Was Just Me (But It Isn’t) by Brene Brown
  • Practicing Peace in Times of War by Pema Chodron
  • When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron
  • On Death and Dying by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
  • Unattended Sorrow by Stephen Levine
  • Joy in Loving, Mother Theresa
  • The Joy of Living by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche
  • Let Your LIfe Speak by Parker Palmer
  • Zen and the Art of Saving the Planet by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • The Essence of the Upanishads by Eknath Easwaran
  • Welcoming the Unwelcome by Pema Chodron
  • Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer
  • Medicine Cards: The Discovery of Power Through The Ways Of Animals by Jamie Sams and David Carson

Into The Heart of Wonder

Last evening as I sat in my rocking chair near the window to the river, I opened myself to a review of the week. What had I done? What had I seen? What had I felt? Images of joy in young faces, scents of life opening, sounds of water, the taste of sweetness on the tongue, the inner knowing that I have witnessed beauty in each day moved through me. As I paused in my reflection and gazed out the window, there before me was a mamma deer suckling her fawn. In that poetic moment, I realized that all the feelings, images, scents and sounds and tastes were reflected here.

I don’t know what the moment was when we felt that we became a deer preserve and maybe it is just for this summer. For the 25 years we have lived here we have seen deer, but I have also felt frustration and adversarial feelings toward them as they have treated my yard and gardens as their daily salad bar with ever increasing bravery and audacity like eating my coleus at the front door when we were away for a week.

This year we are traveling more frequently, and I made the decision to not plant any annuals, no hanging baskets, no potted plants. I would rely only on the perennials and natures green. Not protecting has been a joy. Allowing grazing has been a gift of wonder. To see the once spotted fawn now a mother of twins. To welcome the stranger rather than worry about what they are taking. To rejoice in what they bring and ponder their needs.

For while this home has been on this land for close to 35 years, the paths created along the river, from the protected ravine to our house and the river, from the river up the hill to our land, have been traveled for generations allowing the bear, the woodchuck, racoon, fox, and deer a road to trek. There is a sense of freedom I feel in allowing and not claiming. To sit in silence and watch, witness, observe life’s poetry before me. To welcome its teachings. To dig deep into the heart of wonder.

You are joy and peace
all wonder is found in you
Eat now from life's feasts!

“The object of the artist and spiritual life is to dig for the submerged sunrise of wonder.”

G. K. Chesterton

“Observe the wonders as they occur around you. Don’t claim them. Feel the artistry move through and be silent.”

Rumi

Ongoing Resource List: Reading the the Mind and the Heart

  • The Gene Keys: Emracing Your Higher Purpose by Riuchard Rudd
  • Your Brain on Art: How the Arts Inform Us by Susan Magsamen and Ivy Ross
  • A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle
  • Energy Speaks: Messages from Spirit on Living, Loving, and Awakening by Lee Harris
  • Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create an New One by Dr. Joe Dispenza
  • The Women by Kristin Hannah
  • Cosmogenesis: An Unveiling of the Expanding Universe by Brian Thomas Swimme
  • The Mastery of Love, Don Miguel Ruiz
  • Change Your Thoughts—Change Your Life: Living the Wisdom of the Tao, by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer
  • God of Love: A Guide to the Heart of Judaism, Christianity, and Islam, by Mirabai Starr
  • The Four Agreements: A Toltec Book of Wisdom by Don Miguel Ruiz
  • Mindfulness and Grief by Heather Stang
  • How We Live Is How We Die by Pema Chödron
  • The Bhagavad Gita, Translated by Eknath Easwaran
  • St Francis of Assisi: Brother of Creation by Mirabai Starr
  • Wild Wisdom Edited by Neil Douglas-Klotz
  • Earth Prayers From Around The World, Ed by Elizabeth Roberts & Elias Amidon
  • The Tao of Relationships by Ray Grigg
  • Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom by John O’Donohue
  • Unconditional Love and Forgiveness by Edith R. Stauffer, Ph.D.
  • Keep Going: The Art of Perseverance by Joseph M. Marshall III
  • Art & Fear by David Bayless & Ted Orland
  • Quantum-Touch by Richard Gordon
  • The Van Gogh Blues: The Creative Persons Path Through Depression by Eric Maisel, PhD
  • The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
  • Amazing Grace: A Vocabulary of Faith by Kathleen Norris
  • Forever Ours: Real Stories of Immortality and Living by Janis Amatuzio
  • Personal Power Through Awareness by Sanaya Roman
  • Violence & Compassion by His Holiness the Dahlai Lama
  • Teachings on Love by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • Devotions by Mary Oliver
  • To Bless the Space Between Us by John O’Donohue
  • Meditations From the Mat by Rolf Gates and Katrina Kenison
  • The House of Belonging: poems by David Whyte
  • Full Catastrophe Living: Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain and Illness, by Jon Kabat-Zinn
  • The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
  • Soul an Archaeology Edited by Phil Cousineau
  • A Path With Heart by Jack Kornfield
  • Listening Point by Sigurd Olson
  • I Sit Listening to the Wind by Judith Duerk
  • Dancing Moons by Nancy Wood
  • The Soul of Rumi, Translations by Coleman Barks
  • Keep Going by Joseph M. Marshall III
  • Arriving at your own Door by Jon Kabat-Zinn
  • The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer
  • The Hidden Secrets of Water by Paolo Consigli
  • Conquest of Mind by Eknath Easwaran
  • Color: A Natural History of the Palette by Victoria Finlay
  • Peace is Every Step by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • I Thought It Was Just Me (But It Isn’t) by Brene Brown
  • Practicing Peace in Times of War by Pema Chodron
  • When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron
  • On Death and Dying by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
  • Unattended Sorrow by Stephen Levine
  • Joy in Loving, Mother Theresa
  • The Joy of Living by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche
  • Let Your LIfe Speak by Parker Palmer
  • Zen and the Art of Saving the Planet by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • The Essence of the Upanishads by Eknath Easwaran
  • Welcoming the Unwelcome by Pema Chodron
  • Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer
  • Medicine Cards: The Discovery of Power Through The Ways Of Animals by Jamie Sams and David Carson

Do I Dare Call You Friend?

I walked into the bedroom on the first floor facing the front gardens and the street that curves like a river. There, outside the window, at 9 o’clock in the morning, not 10 feet away, beneath the Amur Maple, was a deer lying on the ground in repose. 

I felt awe of her trusting peacefulness as she gazed at me and I at her. She appeared young, maybe a year or two, all alone and so uncharacteristically calm and trusting. Then my heart recognized her as the recently born fawn who had come up to me in my garage braying desperately for her mama. A smile spread across my face and heart as I remembered our encounter a couple of years ago. 

Now, after our gentle gazing, she rose and walked to the shade garden. Looking back at me she allowed me a photo and a wave of peaceful presence in this moment. A reminder that amid world turmoil, mass shootings, war, and all manner of injustice, we turn to the natural world and rest in the splendor before us.  

Do I dare call you friend?
We never had a discussion
nor a hug or touch
only a cry for help from you
as you stood at my feet looking up
then later a penetrating gaze
recognizing something familiar
known only within my heart and yours
.

I go to nature to be soothed and healed, and to have my senses put in order.

John Burroughs

Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better.

Albert Einstein

There’s a whole world out there, right outside your window. You’d be a fool to miss it.

Charlotte Ericksson

Ongoing Resource List: Books for the Mind and the Heart

  • The Gene Keys: Emracing Your Higher Purpose by Riuchard Rudd
  • Your Brain on Art: How the Arts Inform Us by Susan Magsamen and Ivy Ross
  • A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle
  • Energy Speaks: Messages from Spirit on Living, Loving, and Awakening by Lee Harris
  • Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create an New One by Dr. Joe Dispenza
  • The Women by Kristin Hannah
  • Cosmogenesis: An Unveiling of the Expanding Universe by Brian Thomas Swimme
  • The Mastery of Love, Don Miguel Ruiz
  • Change Your Thoughts—Change Your Life: Living the Wisdom of the Tao, by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer
  • God of Love: A Guide to the Heart of Judaism, Christianity, and Islam, by Mirabai Starr
  • The Four Agreements: A Toltec Book of Wisdom by Don Miguel Ruiz
  • Mindfulness and Grief by Heather Stang
  • How We Live Is How We Die by Pema Chödron
  • The Bhagavad Gita, Translated by Eknath Easwaran
  • St Francis of Assisi: Brother of Creation by Mirabai Starr
  • Wild Wisdom Edited by Neil Douglas-Klotz
  • Earth Prayers From Around The World, Ed by Elizabeth Roberts & Elias Amidon
  • The Tao of Relationships by Ray Grigg
  • Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom by John O’Donohue
  • Unconditional Love and Forgiveness by Edith R. Stauffer, Ph.D.
  • Keep Going: The Art of Perseverance by Joseph M. Marshall III
  • Art & Fear by David Bayless & Ted Orland
  • Quantum-Touch by Richard Gordon
  • The Van Gogh Blues: The Creative Persons Path Through Depression by Eric Maisel, PhD
  • The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
  • Amazing Grace: A Vocabulary of Faith by Kathleen Norris
  • Forever Ours: Real Stories of Immortality and Living by Janis Amatuzio
  • Personal Power Through Awareness by Sanaya Roman
  • Violence & Compassion by His Holiness the Dahlai Lama
  • Teachings on Love by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • Devotions by Mary Oliver
  • To Bless the Space Between Us by John O’Donohue
  • Meditations From the Mat by Rolf Gates and Katrina Kenison
  • The House of Belonging: poems by David Whyte
  • Full Catastrophe Living: Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain and Illness, by Jon Kabat-Zinn
  • The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
  • Soul an Archaeology Edited by Phil Cousineau
  • A Path With Heart by Jack Kornfield
  • Listening Point by Sigurd Olson
  • I Sit Listening to the Wind by Judith Duerk
  • Dancing Moons by Nancy Wood
  • The Soul of Rumi, Translations by Coleman Barks
  • Keep Going by Joseph M. Marshall III
  • Arriving at your own Door by Jon Kabat-Zinn
  • The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer
  • The Hidden Secrets of Water by Paolo Consigli
  • Conquest of Mind by Eknath Easwaran
  • Color: A Natural History of the Palette by Victoria Finlay
  • Peace is Every Step by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • I Thought It Was Just Me (But It Isn’t) by Brene Brown
  • Practicing Peace in Times of War by Pema Chodron
  • When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron
  • On Death and Dying by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
  • Unattended Sorrow by Stephen Levine
  • Joy in Loving, Mother Theresa
  • The Joy of Living by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche
  • Let Your LIfe Speak by Parker Palmer
  • Zen and the Art of Saving the Planet by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • The Essence of the Upanishads by Eknath Easwaran
  • Welcoming the Unwelcome by Pema Chodron
  • Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer
  • Medicine Cards: The Discovery of Power Through The Ways Of Animals by Jamie Sams and David Carson