Life as a Fractal

I pause and witness a day’s labor:
dead branches piled on the ground,
pruned lilacs in the grove
of unattended neglect,
young shoots now allowed to grow
and provide the scent of spring
when they mature into bloom.

It is easier to see another’s aging
rather than my own—
when a tree or a flower
completes its purpose,
ceases to be its full self, without fear,
it returns to the earth, restored
to the wholeness of creation.

While my aging manifests in human form,
the Self that resides within does not grow old—
itself an everlasting fractal of the whole.
When I no longer bloom, when
my mission is complete,
the Self is absorbed into All That Is.
A new cycle begins.

“Modern humans became fixated on a collective hallucination of linear time, ignoring the fractal spirals of the surrounding universe.”

-Daniel Pinchbeck

“A fractal is a way of seeing infinity.”

-Benoit Mandelbrot

“Any issue and any problem, no matter what height you look at it from, no matter how much you extend past the first fractal, it’s still a fractal of something that emanates from within your consciousness – from within the human consciousness. And it’ll move on and manifest itself externally, and then those are what we pick up as societal ills. But all these battles we’re fighting are internal. For me, it’s reconciling hope with dread and trying to cut out some place in my mind where my heart can be protected a little bit.”

-EI-P

The Path of Suffering

The path of suffering is a lonely path. 
Affliction arises; story is created around the pain.
Once entered, it is difficult to depart as
thoughts dance in a loop—diminish our resolve,
suck our energy, our creativity, our love.
A point of choice awakens in our seeking:
we find a door that offers an exit from this diminishment
of heart and mind, or we stay locked inside, feeling
tied to thoughts that wound the soul.
Are we willing to look within the pain?
Endure the weight of what is asked of us?
Bear the needed change required to release us?
Now, that is the mystery. That is the unknown.
Our response dictates our tomorrow
as we pray for you and for me:
May we all be freed from our suffering.

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of those depths.”

– Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

“The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering.”

-Ben Okri

“Suffering isn’t ennobling, recovery is.”

-Christiaan Barnard

Co-creation

Rise from slumber.
Fling open the curtains.
View the world
after whipping wind,
and pounding rain unfold
a newfound calm.

Hummingbird flits,
flower to flower,
dining on fresh nectar
made from an offering
of digging, planting,
and attending.

Produced in co-creation,
a feast for an unknown
and welcome guest.
Joy rises to meet
this day, and spirit
unfolds before us.

“We exist in a co-created reality in which we cannot always choose all our circumstances. But how we think and feel about a given situation is always our choice.”

– Anthon St. Maarten

“The time is now for transformation. It is a new era and we are poised with the opportunity to bring in new consciousness, and co-create a new reality. Why? Because the light within each of us has been turned on and it’s our job to turn that light on brighter and brighter until all false thought forms dissolve in the light of our truth.”

-Dr. Michelle L. Casto

“Feeding birds means feeding yourself! Birds are part of nature and feeding nature is nothing but feeding yourself!”

-Mehmet Murat ildan

Living Bliss

I ask myself, why do I feel so tormented 
with deer who do what deer do:
a flower recently planted lies smashed
out of its pot—limp on the ground,
the tops of the magenta beauties
stand stripped and bereft of color.

As I stop and breathe, feel the turmoil of wanting
to welcome and wanting to be left alone,
I witness the paradox of inviting in all of nature
and then wanting to control who arrives.
I ponder life’s abundance; I understand that
all the colors I want, and need, are always before me.

I enjoyed magenta beauty as I walked past
in the day, aware of her within my display,
in the large red pot. A deer enjoyed magenta beauty
as she walked past one evening and became
one with the excitement of her desire.
Now, which of us lives in bliss, I wonder.

“Where ignorance is bliss, ‘tis folly to be wise.”

-Thomas Gray

“Just think of any negativity that comes at you as a raindrop falling into the ocean of your bliss.”

-Maharishi Mahesh Yogi

“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.”

-Joseph Campbell

Waiting for Bloom

We wait patiently for peony to bloom,
to open and shine in all her glory.
Might she feel the excitement
in being all that she is,
the anticipation as stem grows stronger—
stands taller reaching for the sun.
We too wait for blossoming,
not always patient,
wanting to be all that we are.
We forget that each moment of
loving and being arrives at the next,
until next is lived, and then next,
and on until our heart petals open in joy
and we arrive within to all that is

How does the meadow flower its bloom unfold? Because the lovely little flower is free down to its root, and in that freedom bold.

William Wordsworth

If your heart is a volcano, how shall you expect flowers to bloom?

Khalil Gibran

May my soul bloom in love for all existence.

Rudolf Steiner

All That Is



I wanted to write of peace, then I thought of wars.
I wanted to write of hope, then I thought of suffering.
I wanted to write of compassion, then I thought of judgment.
I wanted to write of the flowing river, then I thought of ravaging floods.
I wanted to write of the beauty of water, then I remembered those dying of thirst.
Instead, I write of the purple iris unfolding before me in peace, love, and beauty.
All that is, I trust, in this one, wondrous moment.

“You are a limitless consciousness, Love, and the One who contains within yourself all that is.”

-Raphael Zernoff

“Being present is being connected to all things.”

-S. Kelly Harrell

“In all things of nature there is something of the marvelous.”

-Aristotle

To Living, To Life

I express deep gratitude to the mother who said yes to birthing me into this world—a world of beauty, challenges, pain, love expressed, with opportunities to give, develop this soul, give of self.

Beauty not found in perfection in her or me, but beauty in the raw truth of living. The opportunity to walk this earth, breathe this air, touch another human, feel the depth of pain expressed in tears, learn to keep going when all seems lost.

I look at mother robin who created her fragile nest atop our trellis against the east facing wall and see determination, duty, purpose, and faith as she watches the rise of sun in each day, protects her eggs, and waits for life to unfold.

In beauty it is so. Joyous good wishes to all mothers in this day and always.

“The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.”

-Pablo Picasso

“Birth is not only about making babies. Birth is about making mothers…strong, competent, capable mothers who trust themselves and know their inner strength.”

-Barbara Katz Rothman

“Birth is an experience that demonstrates that life is not merely function and utility, but form and beauty.”

-Christopher Largen

A Soul Journey


Dark fog deprives perception.
What I don’t know fills the ocean.
What I do know fills a thimble.

In each day, certainties fall.
The full picture is not perceived.
Dark fog deprives perception.

I strive to see into my soul,
clouded with years of unknowing.
What I don’t know fills the ocean.

Layer by layer the path clears.
Trust in the journey begins to form.
What I do know fills a thimble.

“Lack of true knowledge is the source of all pain and sorrows.”

—Yoga Sutras

“The more I see, the less I know for sure.”

—John Lennon

“The world is full of magic things, patiently waiting for our senses to grow sharper.”

—W.B. Yeats

Choices We Make


We walk with fear:
We believe; not enough.
We feel; too much.
We worry; how will we?
We cry; when will it?
We dread; who will it be?
We tremble; what will happen?

We walk with love:
Abundance appears.
Joy fills our being.
Trust is our path.
Silence is our friend.
Beauty abounds.
Connection rises in being.
Choice is our freedom.

“The enemy is fear. We think it is hate; but it is fear.”

 — Mahatma Gandhi

“If you knew the secret of life, you too would choose no other companion but love.”

 — Rumi

“May your choices reflect your hopes, not your fears.”

— Nelson Mandela

The Same Light

Light entered my world today, not from the east, solely from the north. A swath of blue and white within a sky covered with dark clouds. Instead of the window I look out to see the expected, I choose an alternate window to see the unexpected. The same light seen through a different world view.

“It is a narrow mind which cannot look at a subject from various points of view.”

—George Eliot

“If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to man [and woman] as it is—infinite.”

—William Blake

“In this treacherous world, nothing is the truth or a lie. Everything depends on the color of the crystal through which one sees it.”

—Pedro Calderón de la Barca