The Veil Between Worlds

After my mother’s death,

days after the veil between
worlds once again closed,
leaving me to the details
of a life stopped in motion,
I enter her home, 

	see the desk with her pen
	lying on the green blotter,
	next to a stack of unpaid bills 
        ready for her signature.
	I look toward the kitchen

as she left it, a jumble of paper recipes,
notes she made for groceries, reminders,
all waiting for her return—her hand, in the 
making of caramel rolls or an apple pie. 
I walk down the hall

	past the family photos, the ancestors
	long buried in clay soil
	back on the 40 acre “Heartbreak Farm”
	as it was later called.
	I enter her bedroom, 

see the rose colored walls, 
move into her private bathroom,
open a drawer, and that is when
a tear drops, and with an
intake of breath 

	and release, the tears flow.
	I hold her toothbrush, then touch
	the earrings resting on the stone counter—
	the intimate details of a life.
	I smell her in this space, not 

a flowery presence, more of powder—
a scent of living, cleansing, of hope, and
one I want to cling to like the scent on the 
yellow blanket that became a shroud, when
I held my week-old daughter,

	and carried her back to the hospital
	as she died in my arms.
	A scent I then wanted to embrace, 
	until the day I
	set it down and believed in

my one next step of living.


(Image from artist collection)

“Love is in the sensual details.” 

Lebo Grand

“In a relationship the details are everything because they remind you – just when you need to be reminded the most – why you fell in love with someone in the first place.” 

Mike Gayle, His ‘N’ Hers

“Life is not a plot; it’s in the details.” 

Jodi Picoult, Vanishing Acts

Ongoing Resource List: Reading for Heart and Mind

• Spiritual Growth: Being Your Higher Self by Sanaya Roman
• The Art of Pilgrimage: The Seekers Guide to Making Travel Sacred by Phil Cousineau
• Living With Joy: Keys to Personal Power & Spiritual Transformation by Sanaya Roman
• Love Poem From God: Twelve Sacred Voices From Ease and West by Daniel Ladinsky
• The Gene Keys: Emracing Your Higher Purpose by Riuchard Rudd
• Your Brain on Art: How the Arts Inform Us by Susan Magsamen and Ivy Ross
• A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle
• Energy Speaks: Messages from Spirit on Living, Loving, and Awakening by Lee Harris
• Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create an New One by Dr. Joe Dispenza
• The Women by Kristin Hannah
• Cosmogenesis: An Unveiling of the Expanding Universe by Brian Thomas Swimme
• The Mastery of Love, Don Miguel Ruiz
• Change Your Thoughts—Change Your Life: Living the Wisdom of the Tao, by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer
• God of Love: A Guide to the Heart of Judaism, Christianity, and Islam, by Mirabai Starr
• The Four Agreements: A Toltec Book of Wisdom by Don Miguel Ruiz
• Mindfulness and Grief by Heather Stang
• How We Live Is How We Die by Pema Chödron
• The Bhagavad Gita, Translated by Eknath Easwaran
• St Francis of Assisi: Brother of Creation by Mirabai Starr
• Wild Wisdom Edited by Neil Douglas-Klotz
• Earth Prayers From Around The World, Ed by Elizabeth Roberts & Elias Amidon
• The Tao of Relationships by Ray Grigg
• Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom by John O’Donohue
• Unconditional Love and Forgiveness by Edith R. Stauffer, Ph.D.
• Keep Going: The Art of Perseverance by Joseph M. Marshall III
• Art & Fear by David Bayless & Ted Orland
• Quantum-Touch by Richard Gordon
• The Van Gogh Blues: The Creative Persons Path Through Depression by Eric Maisel, PhD
• The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
• Amazing Grace: A Vocabulary of Faith by Kathleen Norris
• Forever Ours: Real Stories of Immortality and Living by Janis Amatuzio
• Personal Power Through Awareness by Sanaya Roman
• Violence & Compassion by His Holiness the Dahlai Lama
• Teachings on Love by Thich Nhat Hanh
• Devotions by Mary Oliver
• To Bless the Space Between Us by John O’Donohue
• Meditations From the Mat by Rolf Gates and Katrina Kenison
• The House of Belonging: poems by David Whyte
• Full Catastrophe Living: Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain and Illness, by Jon Kabat-Zinn
• The Faraway Nearby by Rebecca Solnit
• Soul an Archaeology Edited by Phil Cousineau
• A Path With Heart by Jack Kornfield
• Listening Point by Sigurd Olson
• I Sit Listening to the Wind by Judith Duerk
• Dancing Moons by Nancy Wood
• The Soul of Rumi, Translations by Coleman Barks
• Keep Going by Joseph M. Marshall III
• Arriving at your own Door by Jon Kabat-Zinn
• The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer
• The Hidden Secrets of Water by Paolo Consigli
• Conquest of Mind by Eknath Easwaran
• Color: A Natural History of the Palette by Victoria Finlay
• Peace is Every Step by Thich Nhat Hanh
• I Thought It Was Just Me (But It Isn’t) by Brene Brown
• Practicing Peace in Times of War by Pema Chodron
• When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron
• On Death and Dying by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
• Unattended Sorrow by Stephen Levine
• Joy in Loving, Mother Theresa
• The Joy of Living by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche
• Let Your LIfe Speak by Parker Palmer
• Zen and the Art of Saving the Planet by Thich Nhat Hanh
• The Essence of the Upanishads by Eknath Easwaran
• Welcoming the Unwelcome by Pema Chodron
• Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer
• Medicine Cards: The Discovery of Power Through The Ways Of Animals by Jamie Sams and David Carson